well, after a 2 days of consistent spluttering, and sleepless nights staying up with him, we came to the conclusion that while the medication was helping, it wasn’t really doing very much good, and loki should be booked in to the vet sooner rather than later.
i spoke with our usual vet, and told her that we’d noticed that his throat was bulging, and we could physically see the food moving up and down his throat as he went to vomit, then swallowed it again. however, on this note, and through further discussion, we came to the conclusion that, in addition to the occasional vomiting, loki was mainly regurgitating his food - which would explain why he would bring up meals he’d eaten over 8 hours previously.
he’s going in tomorrow for a barium meal, then an xray, as the potential diagnosis is megaesophogus- which, as it sounds, would mean that his eusophogus is enlarged so that food escapes from his stomach and sits in his throat until he eventually is sick.
there are a number of causes for this, which if diagnosed we could look into - but none of which actually seem to give us a positive answer, as it’s pretty much incurable.
as i wrote this, our window cleaner came to the door and loki snaffled my crispbread with cheese off of the table - cue lots of huffing and puffing. after rubbing his throat, which made lots of gurgling, burping noises, i could physically see the sick coming into his mouth and him swallowing it again. now, despite him being sick most of the crispbread, he’s still puffing and i can hear him chewing every now and again.
the bad thing is too- he snuck into my neighbours from the back garden when i got in and ate some of the cat’s food, so when meaty lumps came up i don’t know if that’s from his breakfast, or from the catfood - although going by the amount of weight he’s lost, it could be either.
we’ll know for certain tomorrow, and will hopefully be given new meds, or some kind of treatment plan, but as much as i know loki is a fighter, being unable to eat or drink properly - or to keep anything down - is so awful for him. he’s permanently starving - hence stealing any food he can get - and i have to say, i think he has lost pretty much all of the weight he can lose. you can see all of his ribs, all of his spine, and his two hipbones sit at least a few cm above where his fur is. also, when rubbing his throat, dandruff and dead skin practically coated my black boots with beige flakes.
i guess the whole way through we had been hopeful that there would be a cause, and then that the cause could be cured, and we’d have loki back eating normally and back to himself. the thing is, i guess, that if he can’t eat, then how long can we go on and how much worse is it possible for him to get?
i’ve done a bit of research, and on speaking to the vet, if this is the problem after all, then it’s unlikely that it will ever stop. she’s had experience with one great dane who had the condition, and despite surviving for several years, needed constant medication, supervision, and care, before he eventually died through aspiration pneumonia when he inhaled the food back into his lungs- something, given loki’s desperation to suck every piece of food back into him, that scares me every time he vomits even before i had heard of megaesophogus.
i know i’m reading too much into this and it’s not even been confirmed, but everything i learn about it, i can identify the symptoms exactly in loki. i guess i hope that it’s something else, but at the moment i think we are preparing for the worse. which is so, so horrible, given that only a week ago we thought we’d got him back from certain death!
i’ll keep you posted as to how tomorrow goes - we’ll know by mid afternoon, and can take it from there. there may be an operation that he can go through, but we’ll know more when they can identify how bad the situation is, and if there is anything they can do.
sorry guys
just in that horrible place right now where, when will we know when he’s suffering, and what if he is already? hoping for some good news for the weekend. i guess all i can do is wait and see…